Pro's and Con's

Yesterday i sat at this outdoor cafe, enjoying the sun beating down on me, wear flip flops and a t-shirt. eating a salad with strawberries on it and feeling as though there was finally hope in a chicagoland filled with winter and snow......

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this is me today.... walking in a blizzard... freezing my ass off and cursing myself for jinxing it with such frivolous thoughts yesterday. I woke up this morning to a day filled with weather from satan himself. so get this, not only was it snowing so hard that your face had snow stuck to it, but it was raining too... hard! I'm walking to the store to get some movies for this terrible day, and i keep getting hit with ICE CHUNKS! so now we have snow, rain, and chunks of spitting ice. i'm wading through it, i'm covered in it... for pete's sake it's march. i want this to be done now. i started getting very depressed until i got a call from one of my dear friends who had been throwing up for two days straight. to make it worse it was gorgeous where she was, which in my opinion is much worse. it's one thing to be stuck inside on a crappy day, it's another to be stuck inside on one that's perfect. and i'm not throwing up.. always a plus. so i sat down and wrote list of pro's and cons. there were two ways i could be looking at this day.

#1. "this is the worst day of my life. my power got shut off, i have no hot water, i just walked in the door soaking wet and cold and stubbed my toe on top of it all. i have no one to be with, i'm lonely and depressed. why did i ever come to chicago. AND SHUT UP YOU DAMN LEAKY FAUCET!" ( all of this did actually happen)

#2. "oh my gosh, i am soooo glad i have nowhere to be today! i can rent movies, make a pie, and cozy up! what's more is i have no homework to do because spring break is just around the corner, and mama will be here in two day's to pick me up for vacation! wow, that leaky faucet really does add charm."

when you put it that way, it really does help. i ended choosing the latter one, and i feel much better now. true to my imaginary conversation i did in fact bake a pie. the only pie that can make me feel better...... apple. after i came to grips with the fact that the weather was just going to suck no matter how many times i cursed the sky i had quite a cozy day with myself. don't pity me! you only wish you had such an amazing rainy/snowy/ice pellety day!

In all seriousness though, if i could manage to make sense of ever terrible situation i find myself in like i did today, i would be much better off. i'm learning... this is progress!

go make a pie, i dare it to taste better than mine. mine's optimistic.