I KNOW OK?! don't remind me of what a terrible blog friend i have been, if you could only have a day in my shoes you wouldn't scold me. here, let me show you...
school has vamped up to an exhausting pace. i think they think that we're spoiled newbies that need to be punished. work involving a baby 24/7 is harder than it sounds, and when i'm not doing either of those things i'm doing the mounds of homework i bring home, or babysitting, or cleaning, or trying not to starve myself seeing as the only thing i buy anymore is granola bars. I have completely abandoned trying to cook for myself, there's just no time, and when you do it for a living, some of the charm is lost, just like most everything. I'm tired, body, soul and mind. life just seems to be a roller coaster that i can't get off. i miss home, i miss peace, and most of all, i miss watching life, instead of trying to keep up with it.
but not all has been bad. i've gotten really plugged into my church, PRAISE GOD! and i made a friend!! outside of school that is. she goes to my small group and we hit if off immediately... lauran, if you're reading this, thank God you were born. I am enjoying things more, i feel like have really started to make myself a home here, which is a big step, but it still doesn't quite measure up to my real one. Finals are today, and then i have three weeks of summer break, from school that is, not from work and the rest of my life. but it will be cherished none the less.
so yes, things are still bittersweet, thanks for asking.
God has grown me in immeasurable ways, and i am closer with Him than i have ever been. that alone negates any bitching i have just done.
I'm posting some pictures for you of life while i've been away... i will post more later. at least you now know that i live and breathe..... barely :D
waiting for the pictures!! :)
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